I keep trying to reinvent the wheel. Reinvent myself. Always looking for if I did this would I make money this way…….crystal healer, author, massage therapist, cleaner, community wellbeing person for council, secretary, bookkeeper, shaman, reiki master and teacher, cook, creator, see, always thinking…..what am I doing?
I had a call with a Shaman on Monday night and she was very good I must admit. All her knowledge and information came from my DOB and intuition. Wow. I mean Kat just had me speechless with what came out of the graphs and diagrams she created. I loved that she had compassion, kindness and an acceptance for me and where I am at, she was just so lovely and natural. In the extended time we communicated, she did identify that my identity was lost as in WHO AM I? Without the tags given to my name such as mum, caterer or even Peta McIntyre from Cuppas. Who am I? I also was astounded when she mentioned that I was in a cave at the moment, transitioning towards a new avenue. Towards where I am meant to be headed and yes I am meant to be healing many too. So I guess (just thought this) that is confirmation for me, I see that and my gorgeous mentor has told me this also. It will be with healing. I did wonder if it would be through being a Medium but no, my hands are very powerful, I just need to heal myself first. I am not saying I can’t connect to spirit, but my future lies with healing. And masses of healing, not just a few peeps here and there. Oh and I am creative? So maybe my idea from a few days ago might pay off!
So, I am sitting here now and thinking well, who am I? What do I really love or love to do….. I love music in all genres and once upon a time played the Clarinet, Euphonium, Drums and played in band & orchestra in high school. I do like to cook and try new recipes, I love to try all sorts of foods too, although offal and odd things I won’t try. I get a bit gaggy! Umm, I love the outdoors, cool climate, the ocean, animals, silence, love, romance, laughing, poetry, driving, old cars, dreaming, my kids, my husband, friends, company, a clean house! hahaha, i like to sew, to travel, i used to play sport heaps at school too which i loved except the 800m! and change is all good in my world as long as we are safe. Now I look at it, I like a lot of things and many I love. My heart just gave me a warm buzz. You know that feeling you get when you are warm n fuzzy? That one. I guess I forgot amongst the “what about me” saga, I lost what I like, love and who I am. I also should add I know that I am to be a great healer and will be known for this. My children will be involved and my husband will be my best advocate and partner amongst this road. I know it will be amazing, I just got to board the train. And gain as many people in my tribe as possible.
Hmm now that I have written this to you all, I feel lighter. Funny how I have felt like writing and thought “what about?”. Now I know what I needed to write and somewhat know where to head. There will always be challenges and victories and both will be rewarding.
Anyways, just sharing more info. Dunno what else to say? But thanks for listening!
Love and lots of light, and whilst I write that I hear “this little heart of mine,I’m gonna let it shine”. So will have to work on that tomorrow. Shine my light 🙂
Pete xx