Call me Captain and call me unchanged! And here we are at the end of February! Where has the time gone??

Apart from New Years, Australia Day, back to school, trip to Brisbane for start of Uni, Chinese/Zodiac New Year, I am here, end of Feb and pretty much in the same boat as last post. WTF. Can I repeat that bitch again? WTF!

EEEEEEKKKKKKKK!!!!!

Continuing with my Leadership year & the Ankara Academy. I chose to continue with them to be held accountable, challenged and to have pathways open to me if I chose to participate in them. I know that it is a financial stretch as I really have minimal funds to support this. But I keep being guided to keep going and it will all work out.

So, tomorrow is March 1st, start of Autumn while we are enjoying the wet conditions of monsoonal weather, and I kick up the ass from myself and no doubt my guides. Tomorrow I am desiring clients, $$$$, pace, abundance and community. I need it and so does the world. This is where you come in. You make a booking for an online service (sorry no in person appointments available yet) and we get down to business.

This is achievable and doable around my Ankara sales role and babysitting taking place. I am motivated and what better way to be motivated by than working with the fire burning on the inside! Plus, my power animal, a black Jaguar has been very persistent and eager to do more than chill out.

As for the change? All comes with learning, rerouting neuropathways, changing unhealthy habits, and really allowing my truth to be brought to life even if it will be revealing and shock some. I am unsure how many people actually read these, but maybe it is to reread at a later date and hold myself accountable? I know the people that are in need of my services, will be in touch and be a whole lot better for it.

Ahhh, feels better when you share whats happening or how you feel hey? Moving on, we are on. tomorrow. March 1st.

Pete x

I wish to crack codes quicker. To ease this menacing brain that consumes so much of my day. I know there is a message to this head fuckery of a week but there has been no damn delivery yet. I know there is a lesson then the aha moment/s but sitting in this shit really is not great for me. The resilience I have, and share is so small when it comes to me. As if it is yet another thing I choose not to give to myself because someone else deserves it more.

LIKE FUCK!!!!

I know I am worthy; I know that the soul within my body is ancient, I know that I have the power to work on this. Now to link the human brain to that……where is the medicine within my hands to help myself? How is it my medicine and energy can help others without actively doing something but somehow, I cannot do it to myself?

What is my medicine? I’ve questioned this too. One of our coaches has said “it is the trauma that can reveal the medicine you will work with”. I do not have “trauma” as such. I wondered if it was an event for me. Like after Dad died? Or is overcoming so much mental bullshit mine? Perhaps it is finding your north and finding some comfort with spirituality. The coach also said “beneath the surface” which has uncovered some hidden crackers to deal with. As it is there, working through things is when the hard work starts. Dealing with all those hidden emotions, feelings, sayings, connected to everything because it’s all energy. So yeah, was considering some sort of program that works with beneath the surface. But because my brain is in attach mode or being asshole mode, not really the time to sink into some serious creative content.

I’m searching. I am searching for a breakthrough or an actual directed message from my team of guides or totem or power animals……waiting. Doing the journeys, meditation, offerings, journalling, and any guidance given is usually the same. “You can do this”, “cut the bullshit and get doing it”, “time is of the essence”, challenging me or making visits to the sanctuary difficult at times. I have been direct and asked for answers to my questions. – and now I have just been told I sound like I am whinging…….FARKIN HELL!

I know I needed to type this out. Instead of writing the same stuff in my A4 foolscap spiral bound book. My brain is in need of rewiring, pronto. The self-sabotage and feeling like a burden need to fuck off right now!

This one may be good for that: **I destroy and uncreate my relationship to the prehistoric programming of my ancestors. I no longer am requiring the energy of lack, burden, judgement, negativity and self-sabotage, past, present and future in all time, space continuum and in all realities.

**I destroy and uncreate any chords, connections, contracts, ties, binding curses that are holding my human self, my soul, my space, my aura back in all time, space continuum and in all realities.

**I destroy and uncreate any negative energy towards self that has been sent, allowed, given, provided, used, left or found in all time space continuum and in all realities.

**I now place love, creativity, positive energy, sunshine & nature, medicine elder magic, all within these spaces that have been cleared.

**I now declare that moving forward will be actively pursuing my path, working with those who I am able to heal & work with, ensure abundance of finances & adventures and living with purpose while smiling living this life.

**I now surround myself with white light that rises from the earth, into my body and connects me to source.

**I am a vessel of healing light catering for millions of souls. **I now move forward with connection, vitality, calm and invite in guides, totems and allies.

And like that, with clearing statements, I am feeling better. Now to do some clearing for any spirits or entities.

**Any sprits or entities that are not the highest intention or attuned to unconditional love can leave this reality immediately. (Repeat 3 times)

With all that being share and said, I am off to bed. With my white light still glowing.

Hope you enjoyed what was rambled about tonight, ever evolving this life isn’t it?

Peace x

PS: Had any visiting animals today? I had a crow fly over this morning while meditating, a spider web sticking to me and a pesky fly doing its best to buzz and share its qualities.