1st day of Autumn. My mates birthdays today. And what a bloody 2 months already it has been. Emotional, Vibrational, Learning, Illness and Mistakes. Crikey life is meant to be teaching you lessons and I guess it’s all happening this year. I thought when I saw that 13 years anniversary is Citrine, we got some serious stuff happening this year! Ain’t that the truth, just wanted it to be on a positive prosperity note! Maybe it is all hidden amongst the tidal waves being rolled against this cliff at the moment.

I thought I was positive. I thought I had made progress. I thought I was actually tracking pretty straight until it was revealed to me “I need to get out of my own way first”. Maybe there is too much shit in front of me. Shit I simply haven’t seen or felt. Or maybe I am so full of shit how can I see it through the odd coloured lens that has tainted it?

Food for thought and now the continuous cycle will trudge along. Processing who, what, where I am in this cycle of life and the path chosen for me. Yes it is repetitive as it comes frequently. A message I need to sort this shit out ASAP to get me over that bloody hedge to the greener pasture. It may not make sense to you how or why I say certain stuff but here is where I am a person with no ties to friends on FB, no judgement by others, no connections anywhere really. Just an average mum sorting stuff out and placing on a blog to help clear the head.

Thanks for reading, I am a happy person and want to think there are some out there that think good of me. And I will find a way to help people.

Pete x

I fucked up. Bad.Although at the time I thought I was offering a little help. A ahh nope not this time. Ans now I come to think of it, I do it often and quite well thats for sure. Well maybe in bigger jobs anyway.

Consequences. Get out of my own way. Reality. The reality is that I have no fucking clue what the hell I can do to make this better. I think I am moving on and struggling to grasp onto what that is.I have been doing good since my “rut” blog last week and truly thought yes we are going to get there and be this fantastic healer for the world. Mmm at present me thinks not. I have been working on me and getting things sorted here at home just like i needed to. And then this. Fuckup of the century.

I need to write this as I have tried to go to bed and i have laid there thinking of what is going to happen tomorrow,what do my guides think of me? And Dad where are you when I need a yarn? Progress was happening, should’ve known it is too good to be true!

So where to from here? I guess see whether I am still in tomorrow and whether there will be those consequences that I really am dreading. Who knows, when tomorrow comes maybe.

Until then peeps, or whoever reads these, I will try and have a peaceful sleep,

Pete x

I am a great mum and love to cook, spoil the kids and do activities. I am a great supportive wife to a shift working husband and love him for all he gives to us and does for us too. Then there is the other part of me, my identity. Umm for the past week or maybe more, I feel lost, in that rut, still transparent and unfortunately distant to things. I even told my husband that “I feel like a no one, not important”. He totally doesn’t understand and took it the wrong way. Fark! This is the reason why I don’t tell anyone how I feel and also why bother someone else with issues when they might have their own stuff going on right about now.

So, I am still where I was since last blog. I haven’t found me or found what I am supposed to do until these kids go to school full time. That sounds terrible doesn’t it? I love my kids so much but I feel like I don’t do a flaming thing, for me. Well I do I sew and cook when the enthusiasm is there but today I watched Harry Potter. What an exciting day……I want to be excited about life like I used to be, I want to be busy and I want to feel as though I am apart of something. Feel needed. Does anyone know what I mean?

Crazy busy for years and now trying to birth myself into another business but I am simply just lost and without the flow of things I am stagnant. I feel like a whining whiny woman.

Maybe I just needed to blab in the blog. Remove the unwanted from my mind.

Have a great night sleep tonight, keep smiling my peeps, another blog will be coming soon, about my identity and where the bloody hell it is.

Pete xx

In a realisation in trying to nut this bloody rut out, it has dawned that I am missing working & contact with people. Physical work not housework or working in the yard, physical work that interacts with people amongst the community.I pulled myself away from some activities due to family and others as I felt I had too much on. I am home all day with or without kids and most times I get things done and other times i honestly just don’t do a flaming thing. I think I function better when I am busy as that is really all I have known. From school I entered the workforce the following week and continued working. Then I had children, still worked and now I have 1 or none at home and don’t work unless the few here there clients for Reiki. I don’t mean to boast but there was a year there I catered, I worked for a local organisation and I had 6 kids here with me from 6 months to 4. Go figure? I thrived. I was so flat out, so busy, but the continual momentum was drumming and my heart along with it. But now, I get excited when I have a client but it’s not everyday or constant. And I am not complaining, I just seem to have lost the beat in my heart.

My heart still beats but I cried yesterday when I saw my 2 girls coming to me at school pick up cause I was so happy to see them. So happy to be with my little people and to hear their stories. I look forward to more in depth conversations but sylvanian families and school i will settle for now. The boys are always busy with lego, handball and bikes. Plus boxing and they do love the TV………

I hardly get visitors. Some have returned to work, others have had another baby and other moved away. Maybe I am not approachable anymore. I know people change, maybe I have changed too much……..I do still smile and want interaction with people.

I know that when I discuss things or have that personal touch, I feel better. It breaks the inner me picking on the outer me and being so destructive. Does this even make sense to anyone? I thought have I got depression but I really don’t want to die and this feeling isn’t all the time, it is just where I am stuck at the moment. It doesn’t help when I think I want to do so much and make people better but I simply cannot see passed the how…….most of the time. Dilemma’s of the first world. In my world.

I am so very thankful that my husband has the type of job that has allowed us to buy a house and live a comfortable life even if the ocean view is 8 hours away. Holidays are a must :). Plus who doesn’t like the beautiful view of the sea? Bring on North Stradbroke Island anytime! I am very grateful for the possibilities of what our life can provide and what we have, and of course the family unit of 6. Plus the puppies in heaven that watch over our yard ( I hope).

So, long story over, where to now? Ok, I don’t really know where! I am giggling though! I need to nut things out and talk to my main man and we honestly need to be on the same page. But crikey, if I am going to get a job, I need a resume…..and references……oh gosh, I think I will need help!! Wonder what jobs are really going around? Is this the solution to this rut? Unless I really have gone loopy?? Haha, maybe as I am talking to myself!

Anyways, I can say a talk makes me feel better and I do after writing this. I have wanted to write something all week but not some sob story or woah me. I want to empower people with love and energy but dunno how if I am a bit stuck. You know what I mean? Do you think that what I have could help you or allow you to see the potential that lies under your skin? Maybe I should do some videos? I would love to hear what you think…….and to make me feel a little better, I have friends that see me as a person they look up to. So what  can i do to help me and others?? Many questions to decipher, but just wanting to be honest and to let you guys know where I am at.

Blabbing! I am good for that ! ANyways, have a great day and share some love with whoever you want or able to. The world needs more of it and it always makes the recipient feel amazing. Share it and blab it! Feel it and flow it.

Peace be with you, and may your day be terrific,

Pete xx

Positivity comes in all shapes and forms and if so desired can shape your life for the better. You just need a little faith mixed with some spicy trust and saucy universal energy. Maybe I could be a cook for the spiritual! The recipe sounds divine and of course the outcome is so sweet. I mean who doesn’t want a magical, positive and energy of love surrounding you everyday. What if by chance you already do and you simply can’t see it?

I suppose you could call it magic or call it blessed, it is totally what you think and you create your own desires with your own heart and mind. I know in my heart that I am blessed, loved, magical and charismatic. I have a character that is so diverse and strangely interwoven into many vines amongst a trellis.

So, positivity. Back on track……..I will say now that New Moon has passed, I am back on track. Things are progressing forward nicely and I have to be thankful for that hey! I will say that I am finding affirmations to place around the house, I am sure it will look like a post it note christmas wallpaper, but, if it is to empower my mind more, bring it on. I am positive but the doubt I feel that shrouds some of my intuitive decisions needs to exit stage left! I see so many people within groups I participate on be so empowering, so out there with their confidence and product. I want that too. So I need more positivity. More empowerment. More, I am woman hear me roar! Sung by Helen Reddy of course and one of my Dad’s songs he would sing when we were kids.

So, what about you? Will you be more positive? To empower your life or to nourish your soul? Don’t you want to feel tall amongst the fields of green? I do. I want to touch people’s lives and know that “I, Pete McIntyre helped that person today. I made them feel special”. It may sound all roses and chocolates but that is honestly how I want to feel when I touch someones life. To be able to help them either with guidance or connecting them to a loved one they miss. Or even be able to heal a broken body with the energy that comes from my hands. I know I already do this, I have repeat customers and fantastic reviews. Maybe also have a little amazement too, go from Caterer to Psychic in a few years. I know it will come, Positivity will get me there plus that magic recipe mix, trust, faith and energy.

The mind can wander and I guess I could continuously go on for a while but I will save your the time. Just go and say some prayers before bed and dream those mighty dreams. Be brave and think positive,

With love, Pete xx

I currently dislike the New Moon, in fact every New Moon every month. It has only occurred to me that the New Moon 2 days either side, brings a cranky arse negative woman to my house and swaps her for me. I usually try to be easy going, positive to most things and as energetic as I can be. BUT then steps forward New Moon, psycho enters and uneasy emotions roll on. It doesn’t help if other things occur too that are out of my control too, sometimes they feed the negativity that surrounds me during these days.

I thought of writing a nasty post and a current episode of what my feelings were and then I had an epiphany. No idiot, it’s New Moon soon….tomorrow in fact. Yay! No wonder things are affecting me more than usual and my temper is outta control……needless to say I am definitely not nice during this period and maybe bitchface comes to mind too.

I will apologise now to Family and Friends that can’t avoid the wrath that occurs during this period. I am sorry now and always around the New Moon cycle.

So, I thought, right I need to see what the heck is happening to me as come on, I don’t really want to be a psycho every month for 4/5 days. I want to be happy,on track, energised and awesome. (one day sexy too) Anyways, so I got my google out. My bestie, Google, gosh I love thee :). So, googled, New Moon and their effects on people. It came up with various deliveries on what happens and things that did make me think that crikey this is more in depth than what i thought. It seems to me it also stems from when I was born too, as if you are born 5 days either side of New Moon you are affected more. Then happens to be me also. Right. That’s add that to the things to work out also?

I found this interesting (see below) about heightened events occurring and this making this cycle of moon more intense.

“On new moon days, the Raja-Tama spreading ghosts (demons, devils, negative energies, etc.), people engaged in occult rituals and predominantly rājasik and tāmasik people are strongly influenced and receive black energy for their Raja-Tama activities. As it is a day conducive for negative activities, it is considered an inauspicious day for any positive activities. As the Raja-Tama from the moon affects the mind, the incidence ofRaja-Tama tendencies like running away, suicide or possession by ghosts is highest on new moon. Especially during the night, as the otherwise naturally available purification by the Absolute Cosmic Fire Principle (Tējtattva) through the Sun being absent, new moon night is a golden opportunity for the ghosts to cause distress to man.”

“Spiritual research has further revealed that there are some finer differences between the effect of new moon and full moon on man. Overall the distressing effect of moon on man is more on new moon than on full moon. The adverse effect of full moon is more on the physical or gross body (sthūladēha) whereas that of new moon is more on the mind. The effect of full moon is more apparent whereas the effect on new moon is more intangible (subtle). As the effect of new moon is not apparent to the person, it is even more dangerous. This is because as he is not aware of the distress, no step is taken to overcome it. Between new moon and full moon the effects of new moon are less noticeable to us. However the negative effect is more on new moon. The reason for this is that on new moon the effect on man is more at a subtle-level as opposed to the full moon where one is aware of the increase in thoughts”

There is no real ritual or certain thing to avoid the New Moon either. I am still searching and hoping that with help from a Shaman they might know of something to help me. I did just get shown a Salt Water Bath, Rose Quartz for Love and Warmth, and Lavender for improved sleep. Going to try these tonight, so wish me luck! As for learning more on the Moon, I will post more as I do really like Astrology and how the world works with the ebbs and flows of energy.

Keeping you posted on this ride of mine, have a nice afternoon champs,

Pete xx

Thanks January you have brought many things to our lives this month. Some things I would rather have reversed and others fast forward! We always want the things we can’t have, right?

New Years was brought in very ill and raining which by my reports, very welcome and ok to return please! Yes it was self inflicted but hey, it was a night of celebration and festivity. Then our eldest was taken to hospital with a large gash on her foot after not wearing shoes on the motorbike. Lesson learnt as now we have boots ready for the motorbikes. We have been to Mt Isa a few times, playing in the park, took the kids to the movies for the first time and shopping with money they received thanks to birthdays in December. We also have visited friends, enjoyed time with family and said goodbye to our family pets. Forever loved cherished dogs, Fergie and Bruce, may you eat bones, swim in the dams and be cool in heaven. After their devastating departure, school has started along with Kindy and we are as of tomorrow back into the swing of things. Yay!

I now feel like i can start the year work wise officially, setting schedules and appointments whilst the kids are at school. I love my children dearly and would be lost without them but the peace and quiet is lovely when there is no one home. I will regret saying that in time to come, but for now it is a blessing that is only brief but very grateful to be able to have some dedicated time to myself.

As for ideas and future plans for the business, things are smooth sailing and with a little bit of boot polish and love, it will shine once again. I have good reviews, continuously developing my skills and sharpening my mind with engaging tools. It has been challenging and definitely life changing as to where I am at and where I am headed. I do have to fantasize a little as to what I will look like when…… or what the end product will be after………but all in all, I know I will approach those goals with a smile and thank it while I move onto the next. I did only today realise some blocks I have that hold me back are small enough to tackle and I will calibrate to the next level once they are dealt with. This is what will be the focus coming into February. This will then uncover more opportunities to help people, earn some money and of course further this amazing life I have.

I will push boundaries to connect with higher beings more frequently. I will create a blog people will read constantly. I will start in February Meditation Classes. I will start teaching Reiki and Moon Cycle classes by June. I will reassess these next month, the month of Love!!

Thinking positive and putting it into the universe! Much love to you all,

Cheers, Pete xx