How true it that shared quote above?

I am in the midst of transformation and learning new things, reviewing old and really disconnecting from what is no longer serving me. To do this, what a hard job. It is when you hit the bottom or feel like you have you have no will to continue with some things, that there is a lesson or two to learn here. I for one, am learning many. Taking this lockdown time with pure gratitude and calm is allowing me to recognise so many things, only I can understand. I live with the most amazing people, I think everyday I am even more so in love with them and what they bring to my life and our family. Even brings a tear to my eye as I just have the hugest amount of love for all of them.

I got a little stuck and bogged down the other day when I felt lack and frustrated with what was happening with my life on a personal and business level. Not affecting anyone else, really just me…… I attack myself so much, it is pretty bad. The lesson I have learnt so far is, I am not living authentically aligned with my soul and I judge. I thought it was someone else judging me but in fact, it is me, judging myself for my flaws and not “being whatever”.

Moving forward with this realisation, thank whakatane I bloody had this epiphany, I feel as though I have come down. Down to earth. Down to the bare dirt and it is beneath my feet. I am a womanly child. I am allowed to love myself and work on these flaws. Only with love and gratitude. It seems to be working. I have not been so much self loving myself, really being a nasty bitch or so judge judy…..cause I am not this and that. In reality I am being a bitch to myself and that is not how I treat others, so why the fuck would i do that to myself? This is where my authenticity is revealed too. Is this who I really am? Is this who I expressively share in my own energy that others will feel whether intentional or not? Wake up dickwad, what do you really want? What are you? What is it that you are authentically sharing within the world?

Yup, message received. Even now communicating this is making me sad that I can be such a c*^t to myself. Wake the f*ck up Jeff!

So, calming down, I am back on the dirt earth. Working with Gaia. Working with my soul. Working with myself. Making developments in many areas. Why is it we are hardest on ourselves? Not anymore. I deserve better. So does my family. So does the world, my services are needed. They derive from a space of love and kindness. Love is the greatest conqueror of all. Love is everything, and everything can be healed with love. Love is all-kind.

Growth, what a damn fine development participation program in this life. Thank you growth for showing up. Thank you for helping me be me again. I love you endlessly, wholly and hugely.

Namaste xxxx