I am sitting on the couch. Dim light, the dishwasher on, tv off, headphones on with some music and our pup next to me loving life. Nearly every night I do this. Just me and Rex, the laptop and my thoughts. I try of course to get on and see what everyone is doing on FB and read the emails. I think about meditating and think hang on, I will watch this clip or read that email in relation to spirituality etc. This is of course after the kids and Pete are in bed, dishes done and jobs finished until tomorrow.

Then tomorrow returns for another round of daily chores, lists, cooking, FB, texts, school runs, you get the picture. As I sit here now, I think of where I am at in life and it is a little further ahead on the path of life. little by little I get boosted to the next corner and continue on. I am questioning tonight a lot of things and discovering many more that are enticing my ideas around my page. FB page that is. It once was called L Plate Clairvoyant then I thought I moved to my P’s so I quit that page and created another. Lost my followers although they did find me at White Light Garden. I then of course went on to do a Masters course and thought that for me to step into stepping stone and further this career, I would change the name to Peta McIntyre Healing Medium. I was so proud. Thought to myself, “I got this and I can do this!” I am proud of what i know and where i came from. So tonight I tried to read 2 pictures that were in a group i am apart of. I felt that my energy was good but the connection wasn’t. As if I had lost my skills per se. (You can lose your skills but they get weaker if not used properly or used continuously until trained to be on/off upon request.) As I have been off air as such and no employment with any readings, I have had no practice and no group chats due to holidays. I of course doubted there is this right for me, this whole page etc. I then reached out to a friend and we discussed what’s happening. You see I don’t want to label myself a Healing Medium as I don’t want to sell a product that is not 100%. And after the attempt tonight, it has got me guessing. And for my readers, clients?, or followers I want you guys to have faith in what I am delivering is 100%. You know? It really is only the mediumship that I am questioning but it all is in the same basket,so all being focussed on.

I am sure this is where I want to change it back to White Light Garden. To have you my friends come to my garden and to be a part of my life that is really bigger than just the readings and healings. You see I want this page where I have people following me, coming to my page to be apart of the beauty of this world, gain knowledge with things, guidance when needed and I have got to have a page that is fun and enticing to have people interact. Right? I like games and having fun but of course I realistically would like to be paid so this can turn into a career that I so desire. Do you understand?

Or am I rambling again?

I had to write. I had to share. I want you guys to know that I am here and sorting things out still. I will have more of an idea tomorrow, I need to sleep on this and would love to know what you want to hear, see and would you pay for my services?

Peace friends, may you be watched over by source and the angels above xx

PS It is our 13th wedding anniversary today….poor Pete is crook so no fancy dinner or presents. Lucky we have each others presence with a little distance 😉