Last night I was asked by my sister to connect to Dad. I thought cool can do. So, once the kids and hubby in bed, I found a few photos and asked Dad to step forward. I stared at the photos and waited for his arrival and wondered how different things would be like if he were still here. So much has changed and happened, one thought crossed my mind, would I be doing this?? It really was his death that egged me on to really try and connect so that I could talk to him. I thought a little more and thought, Thanks Dad.

He pops in and kisses me on my forehead and of course greets me with my nickname and things. We discuss what I wanted him for and he secretly relayed messages for my sister and for me too. Then all of a sudden I get emotional and honestly think of the last time I saw him in person and how we said goodbye. Still gets me teary now. You see Dad was so weak he couldn’t give me a proper hug and as we drove away with tears in our eyes, I knew it was the last time. Even my husband was crying as said will he make it? We both knew the answer but held hands as we headed up the highway.  Dad says it is all right.

Dad then surprised me. He brought forward our dogs Fergie and Bruce that left us in January. It was so good to see them. Bruce was running around and tail wagging so hard it was banging my legs. He licked and so happy to see mum. As for Fergie she was such a relaxed dog, she laid by my feet and gave me a loving look like she was home. I miss my 4 legged kids so much and still resist to a certain degree about getting another. Can’t just replace them like clothing. They were our kids too. Seeing them made me get emotional yes, but so thankful that I can connect to someone who can bring forward others. So thankful I got to see that they are still happy despite the way they left us. So thankful I get to enjoy once again a loving wet smooch from Brucey Boy and having my big girl close by my side. So yes mate, my Dad, thanks so much for my pressie last night. I loved it.

Once the dogs had gone, Dad reassures me, things will be right and “she knows what to do”. So with that I left it as that. My sister will know what to do. Whatever that means but yep, all good!?

I am smiling tonight and wanted to share of course this with you. Wanted to share what happened to me last night and to virtually say thanks to the bloke who I call Dad. Glad he visited and so thankful for where he has lead me 2 years down the track.

That is it from me for now, have a wonderful sleep everyone, Pete xx