I am a great mum and love to cook, spoil the kids and do activities. I am a great supportive wife to a shift working husband and love him for all he gives to us and does for us too. Then there is the other part of me, my identity. Umm for the past week or maybe more, I feel lost, in that rut, still transparent and unfortunately distant to things. I even told my husband that “I feel like a no one, not important”. He totally doesn’t understand and took it the wrong way. Fark! This is the reason why I don’t tell anyone how I feel and also why bother someone else with issues when they might have their own stuff going on right about now.

So, I am still where I was since last blog. I haven’t found me or found what I am supposed to do until these kids go to school full time. That sounds terrible doesn’t it? I love my kids so much but I feel like I don’t do a flaming thing, for me. Well I do I sew and cook when the enthusiasm is there but today I watched Harry Potter. What an exciting day……I want to be excited about life like I used to be, I want to be busy and I want to feel as though I am apart of something. Feel needed. Does anyone know what I mean?

Crazy busy for years and now trying to birth myself into another business but I am simply just lost and without the flow of things I am stagnant. I feel like a whining whiny woman.

Maybe I just needed to blab in the blog. Remove the unwanted from my mind.

Have a great night sleep tonight, keep smiling my peeps, another blog will be coming soon, about my identity and where the bloody hell it is.

Pete xx